So, it’s been a long time since I have written a blog. Life happens. It wasn’t on my heart at the time. I only write when I feel it. I am just not the type to sit down and write about a topic.
What’s been happening in your life? My life…well to say it’s been busy is an understatement. Since my last blog, my nephew graduated high school and is attending college in Salina to become a welder. My niece is now a FRESHMAN in high school, and oh is she involved in stuff :) My sons are now 9 (3rd grade) and 5 (kindergarten – sniff sniff). We have moved several times and built a house. Our health has suffered. We have lost friends, relatives, and our parents are getting older….Time marches on…
SO what happens at 3 a.m. when you can’t sleep??? My friend Marybeth says it’s the devils witching hour and if you’re awake you are to pray. Sounds reasonable. Lord knows I have been doing that a lot lately. Anyhow, you might have guessed, I am suffering some insomnia currently. It’s okay, Moms aren’t so horribly bad at it. This too shall pass.
But as I read and pray and read some more (I was hoping reading would put me back to sleep, but no…) God put this on my heart, so I will share with you , and I hope it helps you too.
Life is hard. It’s filled with laughs, but it’s also filled with tears. It’s birth and it’s death. It’s success and it’s failure. It’s getting the job, it’s getting fired. It’s getting out of debt, it’s paying another bill. It is just darn hard. But here is the bottom line…
Do you feel like you can’t catch a break? Do you feel like you can’t find the balance? Do you feel like you don’t have it all together? (and by the way – look at so-and-so, they sure have it all). I know you answered yes to one of those (I pretty much answer yes to all of them). Well I have the answer you are searching for…..
The answer is Jesus. Yeah, it’s that simple. You see, I am a worrier. I worry about my worries, it’s that bad. I am also a planner. I make plans for my plans, it’s also that bad. But it can be very exhausting. I feel the pressure to be so many things. I have dishes to do, I have kids to get somewhere, I have cooking, I have cleaning, I have charts to type, I have bills to pay. I have a husband, I have friends, I have relatives.
It is times like these when I have to pull up some of my favorite scriptures. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6 And my other favorite, “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7. Oh..okay…just like that huh? Yeah right….Ever told a worrier not to worry? Ever told an anxious person to not be anxious? It doesn’t work that way….or does it?????
Just breathe….1,2,3,4,5….
Can I expect you to read the Drivers Ed. Manual and then get in the car and just know how to drive??? NO!!….you and I know it takes practice. Can you pick up a basketball and expect to be able to understand the game and all the skills? NO!! …you and I know its takes practice. GUESS WHAT ELSE TAKES PRACTICE?????? Faith!!!!! Believing!!! Trusting!!!
So for the first time in my life, I am on a spiritual journey, like I have never been before. God laid it on my heart to read the entire Bible this year. Now before you go thinking I am some kind of crazy Jesus freak (that’s not a bad thing to be!!), or such…I got my own crazy (did I say CRAZY?) demons to fight…I cuss, I yell, I fail, I like vodka, I get caught up in the money trap… you get the point. Anyhow back to the reason for this writing today…I didn’t really think much of it at the time, but I know right this very second what God was preparing me for. It’s all so clear to me on why He wanted me in the word. He knew I would have a battle on my hands. He knew I would need those words. He knew I would be leaning on my faith harder than I ever have. He knew I needed practice to face this journey and I am learning to thank Him for my hardship (boy that's a hard pill to swallow).
So, when life has you down, and you want to believe the verse “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him.” Romans 8:28…but life is hard and you can’t quite feel it…. FIGHT those demons that tell you it’s hopeless. FIGHT those thoughts of rejection. FIGHT those thoughts that you don’t measure up and just breathe….He’s got this one. Sit it out. Pray. Read. Love. PRACTICE….it takes practice….Lots of practice…
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 NIV
LET ME KNOW IF I CAN PRAY FOR YOU…IT TAKES A VILLAGE…
No comments:
Post a Comment